Episode #11

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What was that... final 3? 

So at the final 4 veto competition, Sabrina came through for me and won veto!! I know I'm shite at comps so I've had to rely on my relationships with others, my alliances and making deals with people at all of the right times! I couldn't have chosen a better time to make a F2 deal with Sabrina because she won veto and kept me safe ultimately putting the power in my hands! So I had a decision to make between Kaitlin & Kenny! I genuinely really like both of them so it was going to be hard sending either of them home! However, I had a better relationship with Kaitlin because we were working together longer than I was with Kenny, and plus, Kenny to me was a much bigger threat to me winning at the end. He's better in challenges and I think all of the jury love him! So I sent Kenny home and it was hard seeing him go because I really do like him! Initially we didn't speak at all and I weren't a fan of his but it just proves you can change your opinion of someone in these type of games!

I'm just glad we were able to work together because I loved getting to know him and loved working with him!

Now I feel I'm guaranteed final 2! I have a final 2 deal with Sabrina and also with Kaitlin so I really don't feel under any pressure to win this challenge. However, I want to win this HoH to prove I'm not completely retarded! And ultimately so I can decide who to bring to the end! For part 1 I got very confused and started thinking I had messed up when I hadn't so I started again and then realised. I'm a liability in comps but I'm still here so it isn't a huge issue. So I had a brainwave and decided to spam in my diary room to get my post count up, I did this so the others would see this and think I had done amazingly well and decide it weren't worth trying hard because I had already won it. Kaitlin had already attempted it which I hadn't realised but if it can stop Sabrina from trying to win it then it would be a good result because in an ideal world it would be me and Kaitlin in that final head to head HoH. I really like Sabrina but she's a comp beast and trying to beat her is quite impossible which is why I've resorted to these tactics haha!

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AIM Chat with Sabrina 

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That chat with Sabrina was very interesting on my part. Firstly, that is the most strategy and game talk I've had with Sabrina this whole game it really is! You can tell it's getting down to the wire now so she is starting to get her game head on and starting to play it! 

That being said, alls it has done is made me realise that I would definitely now take Kaitlin to the end over her. Yeah I would lose Sabrina's vote in the mean time but if hell freezes over and I win this final HoH then I would take Kaitlin. Although I was debating taking Sabrina because Kenny and Kaitlin have said that if she was in the end with me then I would have their vote, but I don't think that would still be the case if I evicted Kaitlin and brought Sabrina with me because they felt so strongly about her not getting to the F2. So by evicting Sabrina I would probably lose her vote but by evicting Kaitlin I would probably lose hers and Kenny's vote and 1 vote is all it takes to win or lose this game.

I know what she was trying to do with this chat and whether the things she has said are true or not I don't know. I get that people may think I've done nothing this whole game but not a round has went by where I haven't been playing. I've had to rely on different aspects to get me to this point and it's not all about competitions which is evident because me and Kaitlin have never won one (apart from Kaitlin's HND win) but I can understand people thinking that as Alex said the same thing when he went off on his tirade like a mental patient. So I know that and I know that going into the F2 (which I do believe I've already made btw because I can't see either of those 2 taking the other) that I have a lot of convincing to do but I've always been good with words and explaining myself. Ultimately it's my words which have got me to this point. I don't care what anyone says but I've fucking worked to get here and had I not formed the alliances I did, made the relationships I had with people and the deals at the right times then there is not a chance I would have received a key in EVERY single nomination ceremony. 

People can say I never got nominated because I weren't a threat and couldn't win a competition. But I don't think Natalie, Jenn, GM, Brendon or Alex were threats and they weren't comp beasts so why did they get nominated and ultimately evicted and I'm still here? So that spiel won't wash with me. I may not have done anything noticeable in this game to be seen as this big power player  but I have a good relationship with every single member of that jury (apart from Alex but I HAD the best relationship with him initially). I'd go as far to say I had a good relationship with everyone in this game including Natalie who she said to me I was the only person to branch out to her. At F10 I was aligned with 7 out of the other 9 players yet managed to keep a secret and not have it come and bite me on the arse. So I've done something fucking right so fuck the haterrzzzz. Haha only joking.

And regarding Sabrina saying that Kaitlin is some big mastermind who will be impossible to beat at the end, I don't see it? She's played a great game but I don't see what she's done more than I have to get her to this point? It was a good pitch by Sabrina but if I win then I'm still taking Kaitlin. 

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Crafty Kaitlin 

Aug 24, 2014 20:46:07 GMT 1 Kaitlin said:
Hey Topaz, I was wondering if your AIM logs are saved, or if you remember the week Roddy went home. Do you remember what the vote count was for his eviction and who won POV and all that stuff (It was the first fast forward).

I'm only asking because I'm keeping notes in case the third part of the HOH is memory related to the game so we can stand a chance against Sabrina. If you win part 2, I'll message it to you as well

Sorry Kaitlin but Sabrina has already told me that part 2 challenge is going to be about past comps, noms and evictions. She's crafty though asking me to give her the information so she can beat me! I love it though I think it's hilarious because it's something I would definitely do if I needed to haha!  I've told her I'll check soon cause I'm eating so I'll have to get back to her and tell her the wrong information  

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My response to Kaitlin: 

Hey Kaitlin I've just checked my AIM chat and it doesn't go back that far sorry! It was a clean sweep though at the fast forward eviction nobody kept him! I have no idea who won the veto though.

Have u done part 2 of the hoh yet? I wanted to do mine today I hope it's not something really hard :/

My AIM chat doesn't go back that far but I remember it wasn't a clean sweep. It was a 3-1 vote to evict Roddy with Alex evicting Keesha, and Cody won the veto that round. See, Tooaz isn't as retarded as she looks! :-P

Kaitlin asking me this has made me more determined to win this 2nd part of the comp!!

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I'm such a cynical bastard! I asked Kaitlin if she had done part 2 and she said she did it yesterday! :/ and I believe she has so she asked me for that info for part 3 LOL

Oh well, nothing wrong with being cautious is there.

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So hell didn't freeze over and I didn't win HoH. I haven't won a single competition all season :/ dunno whether to laugh or cry!

I'm sitting pretty right now though, I've been speaking to both Sabrina and Kaitlin today and I am 99.9% certain that they are both going to bring me to the end.

As long as I get there then I can plead my case to the jury then and explain things. I'm better with words and explaining myself than I am with winning any form of challenge!

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Who would have thought it eh?? I don't think anybody would have predicted this final 2 a few weeks ago!

And I do feel I deserve it because I feel like I've played a fucking good game. I really do. Yeah Sabrina is amazing in challenges and I'm the opposite but she said herself that she has only voted in the majority twice ALL game! I've voted at every single eviction and voted in the majority every time other than the Natalie eviction!

There are 3 aspects to this game; competitions, strategy and social game! Sabrina beats me on the competitions side but I feel I have played a better strategic and social game!

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That being said I would be happy for her if she won I really would!